THANK YOU~

GOO KANG YING is the BEST person in the world!!
MOST  --->    AWESOME,KIND,CLEVER!!!!!

boring~

today is another boring day and nite for me~~ facing the wood housemate really will make me speechless~ i ama talkative girl~~ talk whole day long without thirsty but when i saw my housemate i will ....................... diam diam jor... i dun know why i cant talk with him at all! maybe is because of our horoscope?? our what so call 'shi shen 8 ji" or whatever la.. make me cant communicate with him! even my mama also couldnt believe that i can stay in this type of environment for a year already lo... this house seem like a place where can train me to keep quite! ii still has to stay at here for another 1 year.... owh... by the way, my room is quite comfortable for me la.. ^^

yes!

i never though that i would say
A: u wanna have a try with me?
YY: i dun wan! i still prefer single

wow! i never though that i will say it in such a straight and simple way..
haha... now we are buddy then good lo...
no need to worry and think so much jor...
haha....
now i am hungry and wanna find accompaniment for supper..
today whole day just has one meal oni....
:(

yes!

i never though that i would say
A: u wanna have a try with me?
YY: i dun wan! i still prefer single

wow! i never though that i will say it in such a straight and simple way..
haha... now we are buddy then good lo...
no need to worry and think so much jor...
haha....
now i am hungry and wanna find accompaniment for supper..
today whole day just has one meal oni....
:(

haiz...

today going out with u for a movie is to let u know that me and u is impossible!
it was an impossible mission!!!!
please keep a distance with me~
i just want u to give up on me lo...
there wont be another time i will go out with u...
we dun have the same topic to chat with..
u understand???
oh my goodness..... please help me HALAU all the bees....
i scare they will sting on me and make me PAIN!!

请学会放开或放弃

一个苦者找到一个和尚倾诉他的心事。
他说：“我放不下一些事，放不下一些人。”
和尚说：“没有什么东西是放不下的。”
他说：“这些事和人我就偏偏放不下。”
和尚让他拿着一个茶杯，然后就往里面倒热水，一直倒到水溢出来。
苦者被烫到马上松开了手。
和尚说：“这个世界上没有什么事是放不下的，痛了，你自然就会放下。” 

你可能觉得难过
因为无论你对他怎么好他都不领情
他不是看不到
他只是装作看不到
或者他根本不想看到
你觉得自己很喜欢他
甚至觉得再没有一个人可以像你那么喜欢他
你用尽全力对他好
把他看的比自己还重要
有什么事情第一个就想到他 

联系不到他的时候你担心他担心的快疯了
然而你有没有想过
这并不在你的责任范围
而且很有可能他是在躲着你
他受不了你对他那么好
不要一直发短信给他
不要一直找他
你也许只是想找他说说话
你觉得那很正常不算苛求
但是也许他并不这么想 

记住你的想法不代表他的想法
你是真的不求回报的在喜欢他吗
你扪心自问一下
你确定不用他回报什么吗
那为什么你会难过
若是真的一无所求
你又怎么会觉得难过呢
所以别觉得你那么爱他是伟大的
也许她根本不在乎你怎么为他付出
有时候你给他的爱或许是种负担 

这种负担只会让他更加想远离你
因为他不想亏欠你
别事事为他担心为他张罗
你觉得他没有你不行
你觉得别人做不到你那么完善
但是你要清楚
你不是他要的那个人
你做的再完善也敌不过人家不做
自然会有人为他担心为他着急
不用你来费心

那个位置本来就不是你的
你何必硬要挤上去呢
也许曾经你们是相爱过的
但是请记住那是曾经
过去的就是过去了
如果大家真的适合在一起
那么当初就不会分开
无论是谁提的分手都一样
这段感情曾经就是存在破裂点的
不管是谁错结果都是一个你们分开了

分开以后
如果一方试图想挽回而另一方没有同意的话
那么这段感情就是过去了
他是理智的因为他已经明白了两个人不适合
而你还一遍一遍的告诉自己
你们当初如何如何相爱
不可能那么容易就分手的
这样只会让你更加难以放弃
却不会让对方再次回头选择你
除非大家都有意要和好 

否则你一个巴掌是不可能拍响的
所以尽早打消这个念头吧
至于他是不是有意我想你自己心里比谁都明白
不要觉得自己有多可怜或者把自己弄的很可怜
这样做一点意思也没有
他不会因为你可怜而喜欢你
你说道理你都懂只是你做不好
不是你做不好是你不想做
你不是怕忘记他你是怕他忘了你吧
别说什么他离不开你的 

其实分明就是你离不开他
他若是离不开你
他就不会不要你
整天死死巴着人家不放的人是你
不懂事的人是你
难道你没看出来吗
喜欢他不是你的错
想关心他不是你的错
控制不住自己不是你的错
但是那是你的方式

傻孩子．
忘了吧．所有你留恋的．你回忆的．你拥有过的．
那些．都已是记忆．
缺失并不可怕．
可怕的．是无法面对． 

傻孩子．
勇敢看着镜子中的自己吧．
这个悲伤软弱满面憔悴的自己．
这也是你．成长中的你．
这个你．正在逐渐死去．
新的你．即将重生．
找寻你的路．你的未来．
你知道的．所有的浩劫．都是成长的祭奠．
做最好的自己．即使．一个人．

傻孩子．
你无法轻易忘记放弃．是因为你付出过．
付出了．她就会像柱子一样扎根在心．
不要刻意去逃避．刻意忘记．那只会让你更痛苦．
绕开这个柱子．寻找未来的幸福生活吧．
那里．有你的理想． 

傻孩子．
开始新的习惯吧．
习惯．早上不再有人工闹铃．
习惯．每天一个人生活．
习惯．一个人过生日．一个人行走．
你逃不掉．逃不掉的．
那么．就勇敢面对．现实．
现实是．她已离开．一切．画上了句点．

傻孩子．
好．好．尽情发泄吧．
剥开自己的心．用文字．用声音．用所有能发泄的方式．
泄完了．就要振作．
看吧．你失去的．其实微不足道．
还有那么多人关心着你．以不同的方式．
所以．你并不孤独．
正是这样的失去．让你看清现在所拥有的幸福．

傻孩子．
别哭．别再哭．
不值得．真的．不值得了．
把过去尘封吧．别委屈．别不甘心．别不接受．
开始新的旅程吧．去遇见新的风景．新的际遇．
做你该做的事吧．有很多事．等待着你完成呢．

傻孩子．
所有的人都对你有信心．
所以．你也要充满信心．
你是坚强的．积极的．乐观的．洒脱的．
以前是．以后也会是．
总有一天．那个活力无穷傻气无尽的女金刚会复活 

傻孩子．
生活褪去了曾有的颜色．暂时宁静．
别沉沦在这片宁静里．那会毁掉你．
你要明白．虽然残忍．但这个决定．足够正确．
现在的生活．不是你想要的．
为了你的理想．你必须学会适时放弃．
给对方最好的关怀．就是．变的更好．更强大．更幸福．

现在我对你很好、很好、很好,
你不需要、你无所谓、你不在乎，你不珍惜。。。。
当某天，你被伤害，想起我。
那时的我再也做不到像现在这样一如既往、不顾一切的

对你好了。。。
因为那时的我，已经将你放低。。。。
原来，放低一个人，最后是被对方逼出来的。。。。
其实这个世界，真的没有非要谁不可，
走自己的路，别回头

cold~

tonight was a cold night~ it rain whole day and night
when goo asking me to update blog
i just start to say with the topic of  STALKER
there here, goo, sze and me start to have a fight about stalker
then it continues until surgery
OMG... haha.. it was so funny!!!

shopping~ visit~ eating~

haha.. today really enjoying! i think today is the first time goo, vern and me.. 3 of us shopping at the curve, cineleisure and ikano having lunch at the garden then hang out to selayang mall with sze, the OKU
kaka....
today also the first time we end everything in such a early time... usually we will hang out until 10pm (the earliest) but today 7pm ++  we went home lu.. so early!!! haha....

molest

yesterday i was on the KTM with may chin on the way going back to kepong
i was MOLESTED by an indian man!!!! i HATE HIM!!!!! i wanna chop off his hand and make 'HAM 猪手‘
that stupid idiot dumbo damn ass man molest me twice!!!!!! i was just hit his hand strongly until other people also realized that he touch me!!! when there is a space for me to walk away he still looking at me!! that moment my face was terrible BLACK and i wanna dig his eyes come out!!!! throw on the floor and step on it!!! i was so regret that i did not shout!!!! i should shout for it let everyone beware of him!! (ANGRY + SAD)

thanks GOO!

friendship is important!! special thanks to GOO~
thanks for calling me
yy: why suddenly call me?
goo: nola.. sending regard to u ma..

haha... THANK YOU SO MUCH!!
arigato gozaimasu
kamshahamida!!

LOST!!!

i think recently too many things stuck in my mind!!! i am TOTALLY LOST!!!! I AM LOST!!!! now i dunno who am i... i dunno what's wrong wit me.. i felt that i am TOTALLY DIFFERENT!!! i wasn't the KONG YOKE YEN as i do before... who an tell me?? where is the real KONG YOKE YEN has BEEN??? i don't use to be the last time i do... was it because i think too much?? i feel so LOST!!! last time i wouldn't keep problem in my heart but now i will... am i change?? or should i change?? WHERE IS KONG YOKE YEN???

by the way, i think i got to change myself too.. is time for CHANGE..
i go to be more TOUGH to myself
i got to STAND on my decision
i got to always be OPTIMISTIC never show my weakness to others
i got to be cheerful all the time never show my emotion to others
i got to CHANGE~
i think i got to change... since even myself dunno who am i.. now she dun even know where is her real soul gone.. she dun even know who she was.. she dun even know when she become like this... she dun remember because of what events make her change... was it because of friend? time? or whatever...
last time i will never think of death but now i will.. i do think of end my life.. i do think of when will god take me away.. but i am scare too.. i dunno what will happen.. i can feel that something is wrong with me~

thanks to the baby~

 

THANK YOU BABIES!!! U GUYS BRIGHT UP MY DAY~

hate myself!!!!

suddenly i felt that i was just useless.. i am nothing but a tiny dust in this world!!! i wasn't good at all... i dunno why i was emo-ing and i just hate myself for cant even do a simple thing!!! i always said that i will plan for it i will do for it.. but now i knew that i cant! i am not a good planner even a good friend!! i should just be a follower and follow everything diam diam.. i might even change all my attitudes and habits too.. i am annoying i knew it.. i just like a barbarian... so?? was all this my fault?? nobody even told me that i am good or bad or even tell me that how am i actually was! just a simple trip or plan or whatever but it seem like i have make everything upside down.. i think next time i shouldn't give any suggestion or whatever but sit there and listen everything without giving comment.. i will just be a troublesome only~

party!

yesterday nite i went to my aunt house for a BBQ party~
and there!!! i think first time in my life there is an abnormal human being do such a brave things on me!! he pour a cup of water to my HEAD!!!! hoe dare he... then i use the water pipe wet his whole body~
i still will revenge on him!!!
but it was an experience for me.. first time in my life!!!

air-cond~

garn!! my room is WARM without air-conditioner~ now it spoil!! i dunno how am i going to sleep with such WARM~ condition lo... especially nowadays weather is super terrible hot! please dun spoil in this type of moment where i am super POOR!! i cant effort to buy a new so just hope that i still can be repair lo... papa please ask the repairman come tomorrow~~

thanks!

yesterday after exam i was boring liked hell and waiting to be FATT MOU~
then after watching a boring taiwanese drama.. i on my lappi... then i start to kacau my first VICTIM!!!

TAMESH POON~~ wakaka..
then he ask me to yumcha and have lunch. he accompany me for 2 hours++
really have to thanks him for accompany me.... then i receive a call from NING SZE who made me wanna COOK her so much!!! then of course! i also have to thanks her for fetching me go back hometown!! then goo who accompany me too...

thanks for GOO and SZE who make my evening even BETTR!! i really have a lot of fun and joke with u two... especially GOO!!! i felt that u changed and i am HAPPY with your changed!!!! u look more happy and open! i am PROUD of u!!! wakaka... sze thanks for be my DRIVER!

baby~

this cute little lovely 1 years old BOY BOY make my night so sweet!! 

forget all the emo things and tiredness... LOVE YOU!!

what a boring day~~

in this 19 years~ i think today is the most BORING day in my life...
i think not day but afternoon~~ i feel so empty that i dunno what to do!!!!!
for this moment i feel that life is meaningless~~ 
then i remember a song killing me softly~~ 
then i wanna someone to kill me~
but make sure after you kill me i can alive again for the next moment!
why am i so cham~~~
non of the people can accompany me...
tomorrow i got to work adi.... my holidays.... T__T
i am not satisfy with IT!!!!
i though of today can go out release stress play awhile...
who know.. now end up i got to go back home even earlier!!
tonight got to start working!
what the F~~~~
i am seriously emo now!!! just for this moment!!!!
after i post it on blog i will be okay.. :(

last paper!

tomorrow will be my last paper!!!! wakaka... i wanna meet u guys leh~~ my dear hewa hewa vern, goo, sun and sze~~ tomorrow after 11am i am totally FREE!!! free from the study burden!! wakaka.... if tomorrow we cant meet then have to wait until out trip lo... our hewa trip~ hehe..... really MISS MISS you guys leh.. feel like a century din see u all adi~

now i knew that sze on tuesday and thursday can not skip class.. she got calculus.. friday she bo class... vern and goo i know their time adi.. vern is super free waiting for my call.... now is the big big SUN haven let me know her timetable~

dream~

What the... What kind of dream I had just now~

It wasn’t a sweet dream at all but a bad dream

It wasn’t considered as a nightmare…

I saw my friend almost got rape at a big building.. I was running like a leopard searching for help.. then I  saw a mamak stall asking 2 indian fellows help my friend at downstair.. then I saw a man hit his wife where his wife asking for help.. I was running around the building. Then I passed through a guard. Once I pass through he guard chase me where I dun have a good feel.. then another guard chase me again!! I was like OMG!!!! Then I wake up~ I was like… what the tu.. give  me this type of bad dream~

meaningful~

After I read this meaningful text from an online article I felt so comfortable and relax.. it seem like I learned something from it~ something that I can felt it but I don’t know what was it.. haha.. so I gonna share out this article too… hoping that others can enjoy it…

A Birth Certificate shows that we were born

A Death Certificate shows that we died

Pictures show that our memories and we died

Have a seat. Relax..

And read this slowly

I Believe

That just because two people argue

It doesn’t mean they don’t love each other

And just because they don’t argue

It doesn’t mean they do love each other

I Believe

That we don’t have to change friends if

We understand that friends change

I Believe

That no matter how good a friend is

They’re going hurt you once in a while

And you must forgive them for that

I Believe

That true friendship continues to grow

Even over the longest distance

Some goes for true love

I Believe

That you can do something in an instant

That will give you heartache for life

I Believe

That it’s taking me a long time

To become the person I want to be

I Believe

That you should always leave loved ones with Loving Words

It may be the last time for you to see them

I Believe

That you can keep going long after you think you can’t

I Believe

That we are responsible for what

We do no matter how we feel

I Believe

That either you control your attitude or it controls you

I Believe

That heroes are the people who do what has to be done

When it needs to be done, regardless of the consequences

I Believe

That my best friend and I can do anything or nothing and have the best time

I Believe

That sometimes the people you expect to kick you when you’re down

Will be the ones who help you get back up

I Believe

That sometimes when I’m angry

I have the right to be angry

But, that doesn’t give me the right to be cruel

I Believe

That maturity has more to do with what types of experiences you’ve had

And what you’ve learned from then and less to do with how many birthdays you’ve celebrated

I Believe

That it isn’t always enough

To be forgiving by others

Sometimes, you have to learn to forgive yourself

I Believe

That no matter how bad your heart is broken

The world doesn’t stop for your grief

I Believe

That our background and circumstances

May have influenced who we are

But, we are responsible for who we become

I Believe

That you shouldn’t be so eager to find out a Secret

It could change your life forever

I Believe

Two people can look at the exact same thig

And see something totally different

I Believe

That your life can be changed in a matter of

Hours by people who don’t even know you

I Believe

That even you think you have no more to give

When a friend cries out to you

You will find the strength to help

I Believe

That credentials on the wall

Do not make you a decent human being

I Believe

That the people you care about most in life

Are taken from you too soon

The happiest of people don’t necessarily

Have the best of everything

They just make the most of everything they have