hate myself!!!!

suddenly i felt that i was just useless.. i am nothing but a tiny dust in this world!!! i wasn't good at all... i dunno why i was emo-ing and i just hate myself for cant even do a simple thing!!! i always said that i will plan for it i will do for it.. but now i knew that i cant! i am not a good planner even a good friend!! i should just be a follower and follow everything diam diam.. i might even change all my attitudes and habits too.. i am annoying i knew it.. i just like a barbarian... so?? was all this my fault?? nobody even told me that i am good or bad or even tell me that how am i actually was! just a simple trip or plan or whatever but it seem like i have make everything upside down.. i think next time i shouldn't give any suggestion or whatever but sit there and listen everything without giving comment.. i will just be a troublesome only~