should i?

should i give up you? do you know that i am very tired to wait you? i am fed up with it! you know what was in my mind. why don't you just say it out? now i have the desire to give up you. don't make me do something that i don't know whether i will regret it in the future or not, can? i think i will. i don't know you will or not.. a lot of my friend ask me to give up you... but i always quarrel with them not to give up you.. but it seem that i am tired to stand on it already. stand alone is a very very tiring thing... do you know? besides that, i don't know do you know that i was standing alone? i am really very tired already!!! sob sob T_T

you don't understand my feeling.. my soul... do you? i think you don't lo... now i was wondering me and you come from different world is it? i shouldn't fall for you right? i shouldn't know you right? will i be happier if starting from the first i never meet you? will i? why do you appear in front of me? you shouldn't enter my life and ruin my life! why am i so stupid waiting for you? i don't want to drop tears because of you for the third time...will this the last time i shed my tears for you? will this?

i really fall for you.. its hard for me to pull myself out from you.. i really need time.. i also will always go to your profile updated myself more about you.. but actually i realize i shouldn't do this.. i have to change.. i won't cry for you for the third time. i don't want to waste my precious tears for you anymore! i got to make up my mind now! you are nothing but a normal, an ordinary man like others... lets just be friend!

done all the ASSIGNMENT!!!

finally all the assignment had DONE!!! LIVE SHOW very IMPRESSIVE said by Mr. Wayne Ooi. not bad huh... we are the quietest group among the other group who do live show!

now in my mind i was worrying of FINAL EXAM!!! owh... after assignment still have exam... i exam until 27 jan' 10'.... sien la...

i wondering my plan for the SS GANG trip dunno still can go on or not lo... i think 70% also cant go on already de lo... if cant then no choice lo... my dear friends we still have time.. dun worry be happy!

got to work hard for my study now! revision!!!

MERRY CHRISTMAS EVE!!!

well, tonight was a GREAT, FANTASY night!

we plan to have a bowling game before we had our ZOMBIELAND movie..

whose know we (YEE VERN, me AND STEFANIE) use more than half an hour to search for the parking!!!!

oh my goodness! this was horrible!!!

so we cant go for bowling.....

then we watch the movie!!!

another OH MY GOODNESS!!

first time in my life i watch such a disaster movie that scare me and make me shout in the cinema!!

the zombie were terrible horrible and vegetable...

although it was abit comedy but for me it was horror....

but anyways it was a nice movie

especially for the couple to watch... haha...

then we had our supper at SRI MURNI SS2

suddenly raining..

we exchanging presents... i love them very much!

thanks friends... it was pretty and awesome...

lastly... MERRY CHRISTMAS EVE!!!!

have a nice and HAPPY CHRISTMAS 2009

alvin and the chipmunks

well... well.. well..

now i am aiming on 23th Dec' 09

cause that day i will going to Damansara Mutiara Complex to watch

ALVIN AND THE CHIPMUNKS!!

yeah....

i will watch together with yee vern, ning sze and stefanie!

wakaka...

i think this is good...

it's about a month we did not see each other..

so this year.. we are going to COUNT DOWN!!

but...

we are not going to count down for christmas..

we count down for CHRISTMAS EVE!!

wakaka...

actually yee vern ask us to count down on 24th but..

i have to go back hometown

i have celebrate with my family...

but it's ok la...

we sure will have other chance...

haha... waiting for the day now....

kaka....

moody.............

what's wrong with me?

i was so happy going out with friends just want to enjoy

but dunno why when say until MMS i start to feel sad

until now i was moody..

i think i have spoiled the situation..

i am sorry friends..

i dont want it to be happen too...

but i was emo and i cant control myself...

just now i really wish i could enter to pub or club

i wanna to dance and enjoy! just to STRESS-OUT!!!!!

but it seem hard la...

i know i cant enter it...

i wanna go clubbing!!!!!!!!!!!!

YY u got to CHEER UP

as tamesh said ' u are a happy girl always smile'

so i got to happy again!

be a HAPPY FRUIT

a TALKATIVE fruit

i know i always do.. but...

just sometimes i need to release, show my real face too...

sometimes it was really very tiring to wear a mask for all time

so now i have take out my mask..

haha... but now think deeply...

i often wear mask..

i am who i am..

i am the real KONG YOKE YEN

i dun wear mask...

haha...

presentation

later still have presentation..

i got to work hard on it..

this is because i have to make sure everything is smooth

to keep away myself from the word F-A-I-L-E-D

so god bless me..

hu..........

i got the feeling that today will be another brand new day

hope something different will happen

shopping!

today went to times square and shopping!
my aim is shoe.. but i din get it..
i bought quite a number of clothes..
but funny is no pants or skirt..
all shirts... haha... so funny..
then went to the curve shop again
did not bought much things at here..
just some of the things oni..
then went to HZT stemboat and BBQ buffet
while eating, we make alot of noise..
very enjoying...
is a happy day...
christmas decoration was so beautiful... it was full of fun..
every year i sure will went to midvalley, 1 utama, the curve, sunway piramid and times square have a look at the decoration.
but i think this year cant make it already..
pavillion decoration not bad quite nice..
hope to go out and have a look at it again..

why?

why when i start to make up my mind not to think of you..
you will appear in front of me?
why the things that i want it did not come to me?
why the things that i do not want it comes to me?
what is life about?
i hope my 18 years old will have something special..
something out of my expectation..
my 19 is nearer... i dont hope my 18 passed without anything...
will my hope and dream come true?
all this is fate?
why cant you say it out?
is it so hard to say?
why can i be so so brave and you cant?
why? why?! why?!?
why all the posible things can become imposible?
why are there must be something imposible?
why miracle did not appear when i need it?
why miracle must came without ur eye sight?
why things seem more complicated?
who am i to you????
why cant u give me an answer?

daphne birthday

today i dunno why i am emotional..

most probably because of u..

i dunno why do i need to care so much since u also dun care about yourself

beside what he said was true..

who am i to u?

i am nothing to you..

i was just an ordinary friend for u..

cause until now..

our relation was still friend

although sometimes we do really like couple..

but once u never say i am your girlfriend or make our relation clear

i also will be your friend

so..

now i was wondering i dont have the need to care so much..

i cant do anything..

because i am nothing to you..

so i got to control myself again...

although it was tough for me...

but what can i do?

it's impossible for me to say it out to you..

i am waiting for u..

do u knew it???

do you suitable for me?

i dunno...

i dun wanna to think bout it anymore..

i will just get headache and upset..

i dun wanna get disappointed from u.. but all this have to depends on u...

u have the ability to make it happen to me or not..