LOST!!!

i think recently too many things stuck in my mind!!! i am TOTALLY LOST!!!! I AM LOST!!!! now i dunno who am i... i dunno what's wrong wit me.. i felt that i am TOTALLY DIFFERENT!!! i wasn't the KONG YOKE YEN as i do before... who an tell me?? where is the real KONG YOKE YEN has BEEN??? i don't use to be the last time i do... was it because i think too much?? i feel so LOST!!! last time i wouldn't keep problem in my heart but now i will... am i change?? or should i change?? WHERE IS KONG YOKE YEN???

by the way, i think i got to change myself too.. is time for CHANGE..
i go to be more TOUGH to myself
i got to STAND on my decision
i got to always be OPTIMISTIC never show my weakness to others
i got to be cheerful all the time never show my emotion to others
i got to CHANGE~
i think i got to change... since even myself dunno who am i.. now she dun even know where is her real soul gone.. she dun even know who she was.. she dun even know when she become like this... she dun remember because of what events make her change... was it because of friend? time? or whatever...
last time i will never think of death but now i will.. i do think of end my life.. i do think of when will god take me away.. but i am scare too.. i dunno what will happen.. i can feel that something is wrong with me~