why?

why when i start to make up my mind not to think of you..
you will appear in front of me?
why the things that i want it did not come to me?
why the things that i do not want it comes to me?
what is life about?
i hope my 18 years old will have something special..
something out of my expectation..
my 19 is nearer... i dont hope my 18 passed without anything...
will my hope and dream come true?
all this is fate?
why cant you say it out?
is it so hard to say?
why can i be so so brave and you cant?
why? why?! why?!?
why all the posible things can become imposible?
why are there must be something imposible?
why miracle did not appear when i need it?
why miracle must came without ur eye sight?
why things seem more complicated?
who am i to you????
why cant u give me an answer?