i dun understand!

i really don't understand u!
i don't know what was in your mind!
i wrote until so obviously u also don't know?
or u pretend don't know?
pls do tell me
i dun like the feeling of empty
u should know what was in my mind!
u should know what i thinking now
i think u should saw what i wrote in my display message
but!!!!!! WHY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
why i wasting my time for ur respond
for ur answer
i hate to wait like that!
it make me feel annoying!
cant u be more active?
find me first?
sms to me first?
i really dun understand. T_T
u make me feel down feel sad.
u are d person who raise me high up to the sky
u are the person who take off the hands let me fall down to the ground
do u know that i feel pain
it's not a normal pain but very pain! pain!! pain!! PAIN!!!!!!!!!!!
it wasn't external pain but internal pain
tat's means pain in my heart
i not dare to let other ppl know
i not dare to tell anybody
i only can release my stress n pressure at here
now feel better
but still wil think of u
cause missing u
do i need to learn let it go
let it come slowly
do i?

pity my mum

tonight crazy playing facebook quiz until sot!
finally my mom back from china
luckily she doesn't fall sick
but she not enjoy her trip to china
she felt very bore and annoying cause the whole trip go to temple!
so many ppl that make her feel not comfortable and not feeling well
pity my mum.
i thaught she was enjoying her trip but who know it was bore until i also duno how to desribe it
wasting money and time go over there
all also my grandpa fault
without asking my mom permission then ask her to go
make my mom suffer!
HATE IT!!

raining days pls go away!

today feeling bad! tension! stress! and abit hate + angry!
actually today i very high and happy in the morning! cause..................
i will go potato house for bbq! besides celebrating sher-rin birthday which is on 25th
but..............................
when i go to work i heard they said that tonite got buses come.
my mood just like in a heaven drop into hell! cause....................
i know something will happen soon...
on last tuesday i already ask for half day holiday on saturday which means today 18th
but!! what the fun was happening! my aunt absolutely forget bout it!
haiz~~~~~
it make me feeling down and 1516 cause i dunno what should i do!
should i off or no?
then around 4.30pm my mum told me that she not feeling wel wanna go to clinic.
at that moment i knew that i shouldn't off already.
if i off the pity person will be my mum!
just because of this i choose not to off and stay there to help my mum working!
i don't wanna her to feel tired.
my mum getting older i wanna her to enjoy her life!
so i have to sacrified something that is my fren gathering!
althought i'm not there but i know that this is not the last gathering!
so i will turn up myself for the next gathering.

suddenly feelimg better after say it all out!
sometimes i will feel that i'm useless cause i cant lighter my parents burden T_T
i wanna them to enjoy their life! if now i grow up enough to earn much more money i comfirm that i won't let my parents working. i will wanted them to enjoy their life. i want them to go out country for vacation! i don't want them to feel any burden.
i think everybody life should be like that!!

story time

this whole week i feel very no mood!
i wanna share a story to everybody.
it's began with a girl name kk and a boy name ll.

one day ll ask kk 'do u like me?' kk was so surprised! actually kk got feel to ll means like ll. kk din told ll yes or not but making a big circle that very obviously that kk likes ll.
finally under the forcing of ll. kk say 'YES'. then ll ask 'when?' kk din answer ll but ask ll 'so how bout u? do u like me?' ll say yes and say when kk going out with ll tat moment he already got feel to kk.
later ll told kk tat when u continue u study do we have chance to couple? kk say maybe yes. but everything have to wait until kk study.
just like this ll never message kk.
ll make kk feel very worry and sad. kk wanna know what was happening to ll. but ll did not reply kk message. this was hurt. ll hurt kk. pity kk waiting ll.

the ending of the story still dunno yet. but i think so the ending will be a sad ending.
i hope so that kk and ll will be together cause kk really like ll.