raining days pls go away!

today feeling bad! tension! stress! and abit hate + angry!
actually today i very high and happy in the morning! cause..................
i will go potato house for bbq! besides celebrating sher-rin birthday which is on 25th
but..............................
when i go to work i heard they said that tonite got buses come.
my mood just like in a heaven drop into hell! cause....................
i know something will happen soon...
on last tuesday i already ask for half day holiday on saturday which means today 18th
but!! what the fun was happening! my aunt absolutely forget bout it!
haiz~~~~~
it make me feeling down and 1516 cause i dunno what should i do!
should i off or no?
then around 4.30pm my mum told me that she not feeling wel wanna go to clinic.
at that moment i knew that i shouldn't off already.
if i off the pity person will be my mum!
just because of this i choose not to off and stay there to help my mum working!
i don't wanna her to feel tired.
my mum getting older i wanna her to enjoy her life!
so i have to sacrified something that is my fren gathering!
althought i'm not there but i know that this is not the last gathering!
so i will turn up myself for the next gathering.

suddenly feelimg better after say it all out!
sometimes i will feel that i'm useless cause i cant lighter my parents burden T_T
i wanna them to enjoy their life! if now i grow up enough to earn much more money i comfirm that i won't let my parents working. i will wanted them to enjoy their life. i want them to go out country for vacation! i don't want them to feel any burden.
i think everybody life should be like that!!