Why should i torturing my mentally?
I only left not more than 4 hours sleeping time
I wish i could just faint down and send to ward

No one understand my situation
Even i told u, u will never get it too

I feel like wanna torture myself again
Missing a person will change a person
Should i stop thinking?

Then the happy will back to me..

I thought at night will be the best time for me to take off smiley mask..
Whose know i lt was the worst
Put a mask for a whole day long is suffering
Covering the sadness

Starting tml, i should learn not to take it off no matter what...

连续四天
第四个难过的夜晚
不同的是
今天没有眼泪的陪伴
只有疼痛在左右

Tonight, i miss darling until cry in front of mama...

I asking mama some question..
The way mama answer is similar to darling..
It make me superb miss him!

Me: mama, i miss robert so much...

Mama: is normal..

Me: *crying*

sometimes, i really dunno u are dumb or stupid?
how can u always just let the things happen and happen again?
i believe u already understand what kind of person i am
but u still!!!!!!!!!!!

F***

do excuse me cause i really cant hold it anymore!
u should know i am in an emotional condition
u did not try to comfort me

what the hell!!!

is it because u are too far away from me?
that's why u can not comfort me?
if yes!
then u are BULLSHIT!

u know when i am real
when i am fake
u should know me more than anyone else

u know what u should do and u did not do?
is your mind or heart control u??
dun let u do so?

i am not piss at all
but DISAPPOINTMENT
i hang ur skype and  still keep it online
why shall i do so?
i am giving u a chance

i really dunno what are u thinking
u always or never tell me thinking or dissatisfaction
how should we stand on another 2 months ++

why things just cant got it right?

i am FREAKING TIRED!

今天下午，雨突然下得很大！
风吹得很凶。。
就在这一刻，‘我的心突然想你了’

我变得很情绪化。。
我好想念你！
我是真的非常想念你！
我想你想到要哭~
突然我想起来了

‘下雨天又怎么了，我好想你
想要打给你，却无法打给你
想要你拥抱，躲在你怀里
你却在哪里？
寂寞在这里，我却一个人’

想到这首歌时
我的眼泪却不知不觉，也不知道在哪里
滑下来了。
我是真的很想你

我是多么希望你可以陪伴这我。。
那一刻，我可以紧紧地在你怀抱中
感受你的体温
听听你的心跳声
我是真的很想你

我不是要你担心
我只是想让你知道我的感受而已
我想你！！！

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我希望你会把今晚所发生的事物的想法写完出来给我知道。