my tears flow down again~

well, i never though of crying because of friend~ i dun even know that my words will let u feel so sad.. i dun even knew that there will be a torn in ur heart now.. and i know although i pull it out there will be a whole and a scar at there...
i dunno what's wrong with us.. but i knew that this issue has made us sad and a distance between each other.. for this moment i dunno what to say... when i saw your blog.. my heart was in pain.. when i finish reading i feel like crying but i try to control.. the words HURT me too...i dun even feel good.. but sad and tears..this issue will haunted me for tonight..
now it seem like i have make the issue become bigger and serious.. i dunno what can i do now.. well, i might not be tolerance.. i din not stand at ur position to look at the issue... but did u?? i dunno...
what i know was it has been a long long time i did not cry like this.. the last time i cry so seriously is in february... now the tears flow down to my cheek again.. i dun mean to tell u that i am hurt i am sad or whatever!.. i just want u to know that both of us was hurt by words... hurt by those indirectly hurting words straight to our heart... both of us just dun feel good..
if i did not put u at the important position i will not cry.. i will not sad because of ur words.. i knew that now u are having ur finals.. u are busy with the study.. i am so sorry for interrupt ur feeling, emotional.. i am SORRY!
when on the journey back to hostel i never been so quiet.. this is the first time and my tears flow again through the journey.. now i cant even stop crying.. those words haunted me..
i did not ask for sympathy or wants u to feel so bad or guilty or whatever!!! u did nothing wrong but ME... is my problem.. i make a wrong step..

现在只能怪我自己不好

当初如果我能忍耐就不会有这个结果

现在一切都变了

只好掉着眼泪来面对

除了对不起我也不知道还能说什么呢

对不起， 

考试要加油哦