突然看见朋友的post : i am single now.. cry till eyes swollen

心里很不舒服

头脑在幻想，换来是我，我会怎么样呢？

感觉好害怕

我想我会打包行李

去机场随便买张机票

向这伤心地说再见

一个人在外面流浪吧

人家情人节去phuket
so？
我呢？
有生日等于没有
什么都要我自己想
自己安排
那叫惊喜吗？
是我的问题吗？
要浪漫和惊喜也算过分吗？
有那位女生不要？！

suddenly was in a terrible mood
don't know is because of my hormone playing a fool with me or what so ever

keep thinking of the words he said
really dislike it!
HATE it!

asking him to help me search for vacancy was so hard
by the way, he is just sitting there watching movie or drama series or what so ever
if i am free i could do it myself
why was it need me to beg or get pissed only he will said he will search\
that moment, i wouldn't anything!
he's the dumbo will take it serious

ignore me i am down
caring me i am down
things just don't solve
i'm just pissed

hate the current me