decision!

decision! decision! decison!
it's make me feel annoying!
i duno what to do
i dun wan to trouble my surrounding people especially my family!
i know that i have to get a job
i know that i need money to survive!
without money there are nothing!
i was wondering i should find a job near my hostel
OR...........
continue helping my aunt?
i know that she hopes i still can continue helping her
besides helping her i am helping my mom too...
so i think i really have to think properly
if helping my aunt
every friday after class i got to rush for ktm and lrt to get back home.
tat was tiring!
den sunday also.
haiz....
i think 80% also helping my aunt already
i cant do any others things else.
i have no choice but to follow
so i must always think positively den i will be happy! ^^

finally!!!!

i miss you so much!!!!!!!!!!!!
my DEAR computer!
tis whole week i stay at genting court i feel quite stress!
i feel stress cause i have no entertainment!!!!
i make me really very suffer lo....
i feel like dying! just like a half death fish!
very uncomfortable to stay at there!
nothing to do. DAMN BORE!!!!!!!!!
it really almost took my life!
luckily i still have a handphone to accompany me.
it has become my best friend in that house!
i really cant imagine how to live without it

besides i also duno wat was in tis fellow mind also!
i duno what was tis fellow thinking about
sometimes so care sometimes so cold
haiz....
hope everything will be fine
let it be wat it wanna to be.
lazy to think so much
study adi make me feel stress
although u can make fresh my mind and my tiredness
sometimes just a simply message from u can change my world!
it has become so colourful and bright!

first day in college

today around 10.20am i already reach Tunku Abdul Rahman College (TARC)
for my first mass call means orientation
i jus follow a group of people who line up at the front of main hall
i duno anything jus follow
then i look around i saw a delta member
my national service friend
i dun really remember his name
something jin i think so
i feel so suprise!
at that moment i was thinking the world is so small!
later on i saw erin , roobini and shreethi!
i was so happy cause i'm not alone
haha......
while we lining up i look around again
i saw sin mum and pei chin standing at the side looking at me
i shout and ran toward them and hug peichin
i was so shock!
delta again!!!!
but very unfortunately me and shreethi n roobini cant sat together cause v r diff course
but it's ok!
today meet a new fren
we have exchange handphone number
hehe.....
our tar chairman gives his speech make me damn boring

i need you!

i know u always by myside
whenever i need you
you will try your best to stay at my side
accompany me all the time
but........
we still have a long long time to go
we still have many challenge
still got many things waiting for us
the biggest challenge is my mum
thank you for your need

what the fun!!

today early in the morning get scolded by my aunt
really very funny lo......
i jus wanna to help u oni ma....
like tis also wan to scold me
DAMN!!!!
really very gek!!!!
if not because of my mama i sure scold u back!
really feeling regret to go out
do good things also give ppl scold
really good people hard to be!
i think next time i better be bad gal
easier!
make me wanna cry
T_T

unbelievable

so happy!
although is late but at least still have it
i remember when i form 4 i wish to have a o.d.m watch
when i form 5 i feel that o.d.m is very normal cause i saw
alot o.d.m fake watch at d shopping center stall
but.........
today my aunt bought a o.d.m watch to me
i still like it!
thanks auntie!!!

thanks brother!

well, luckily i got ask u
if not i sure misunderstood again
now i realise actually u still care bout me
haha........
before this i thaught u dun care me anymore
cause u got girlfriend jor....
that time i feel u more care bout ur girlfriend not me lo.......
but..............

hehe....
i realise actually u still sayang me de....
haha.....
gor love u lo.....
besides i have no choice not to love u
cause both of us come out from the same hole
i means our mum!
HEHE......

stupid!

today i very stupid
don't know why suddenly missing u
hav a feeling that told me that u will reply my message
but...............
who know's...
there's no reply also
my six sense wrong
i shouldn't send it
i am very stupid!

爱是什么？什么是爱？

爱，让我们辛福，也让我们辛苦。。。

爱，让我们甜蜜，也让我们室息。。。

爱，让我们回味，也让我们流泪。。。

爱，让我们依靠，也让我们煎熬。。。

爱上一个不该爱的人，是罪吗？

等待一个不回来的心，值得吗？

想念一个不爱你的人，不累吗？

珍惜一个不珍惜你的人，应该吗？

被伤害过的心，会痊原吗？

留在心的里裂痕，补得会吗？

放开手的爱，挽得会吗？

被伤害以后，会更坚强吗?

為愛付出是為大還是傻瓜?

"我愛你"是諾言, 還是謊言?

一段沒有結果的愛, 因該等待,還是要放開?

又有誰能回答我們呢?

我要学会不要把你看得太重

i have to learn not to see u too heavy
but see u more lighter
so that i wont hurt myself
i wont feel that suffer

i believe god
i believe everything was set
our life and the timing for us god already set it
since i were born
now is our fate
i hand our fate to god
let god take over it
i don't wanna to think bout over relation
let's it be how it wan to be
i know that if i continue think bout it
i will felt unhappy
cause i will think bout it for non-stop
i think now is the time for u to think me
not i think u anymore
just let it be
everything let the god handle it
our relation
our ending
happy or sad
i don't wanna to care it anymore
i have to relax myself

i believe if god want us to be together no matter what happen nobody can block us
no matter how i will be with u
if our we have no fate
no matter how hard we want to be together
one day we will break up also
this is our fate

thank you!

really thank you gor...........
for remember me, ur mui mui
still remember my birthday present
haha..........
u cant give me on my birthday so today only give
although it's late but i know u buy it wif ur heart
so happy
u went to china also remember to buy souvenier for me
really very happy and proud of u
so glad to hav a gor like u.

can i live without u?

i realise that i really like u and care bout u
but i don't know r u same with me?
i always wondering what was in your mind
do u know that everything u did i would like to know
everything u said to me
i will believe it
not a sentence but every single word
do u know that i am jus a ordinary girl
i will feel sad
did u think bout my feeling?
honestly i m missing u
i got think before to give up u
but......
i will feel unsatisfy
cause this is not the ending that i want
if u never think before to be with me then is fine
jus told me
so i can make my heart die
i can give u up without any word