Neither you this asshole will updating your blog

So why shall i updating?

U spoilt my night

I am really mad

You kept asking me not to angry

I wanna forgive you, but my heart just couldnt forgive you

Your explanation i can not take it

U didnt think of me it the truth

Did u think of me will worrying you?

Today i put on a dress that dont have pocket

Still i kept my phone all the times with me

Today woke up in the morning i was thinking

What to wear cause i think of you might be coming

I am excited of your arrival

Even if we did not go out for movie nor dinner but still i am happy to meet you

The moment u said u are not coming

I forgive you cause u need to work

What can i do?

每当我回想起我们的浪漫晚餐in Secret of Louisiana,我就会傻笑
我很开心，感动，也很想哭。
开心不只是因为你带我去我一直以来想要去的餐厅
而是你把我的话放在心上！
你给我的惊喜和浪漫
我看到了！
看到你所说你会为我而学的浪漫
谢谢你！！
我爱你！

现在我正在等店开门
等的当中很想打电话给你
我是多么希望你能每天陪在我身边
在我上班，下班
无时无刻都在我身边
我不会一个人，不道德寂寞从不认识孤单
因为我有你就够了！
等的当中有你的陪伴是美好的
更是甜蜜！

I am trying to sleep but...

When i am trying to close my eyes,

My tears rolling down...

So....

How am i going to sleep on a wet pillow??

Couldnt sleep..
There are so much inside of my heart
None of the words can express it out

突然看见朋友的post : i am single now.. cry till eyes swollen

心里很不舒服

头脑在幻想，换来是我，我会怎么样呢？

感觉好害怕

我想我会打包行李

去机场随便买张机票

向这伤心地说再见

一个人在外面流浪吧

人家情人节去phuket
so？
我呢？
有生日等于没有
什么都要我自己想
自己安排
那叫惊喜吗？
是我的问题吗？
要浪漫和惊喜也算过分吗？
有那位女生不要？！

suddenly was in a terrible mood
don't know is because of my hormone playing a fool with me or what so ever

keep thinking of the words he said
really dislike it!
HATE it!

asking him to help me search for vacancy was so hard
by the way, he is just sitting there watching movie or drama series or what so ever
if i am free i could do it myself
why was it need me to beg or get pissed only he will said he will search\
that moment, i wouldn't anything!
he's the dumbo will take it serious

ignore me i am down
caring me i am down
things just don't solve
i'm just pissed

hate the current me