突然看见朋友的post : i am single now.. cry till eyes swollen

心里很不舒服

头脑在幻想，换来是我，我会怎么样呢？

感觉好害怕

我想我会打包行李

去机场随便买张机票

向这伤心地说再见

一个人在外面流浪吧

人家情人节去phuket
so？
我呢？
有生日等于没有
什么都要我自己想
自己安排
那叫惊喜吗？
是我的问题吗？
要浪漫和惊喜也算过分吗？
有那位女生不要？！

suddenly was in a terrible mood
don't know is because of my hormone playing a fool with me or what so ever

keep thinking of the words he said
really dislike it!
HATE it!

asking him to help me search for vacancy was so hard
by the way, he is just sitting there watching movie or drama series or what so ever
if i am free i could do it myself
why was it need me to beg or get pissed only he will said he will search\
that moment, i wouldn't anything!
he's the dumbo will take it serious

ignore me i am down
caring me i am down
things just don't solve
i'm just pissed

hate the current me

Suddenly think of arvil-when you're gone

I miss you

No matter how strong, how tough a woman is..
She still need a lover for her to rely on
Especially during the moment she is sick

Sickness will make even a superwoman slow down and weak
That's the moment she needs a person for her to rely
All she wants at that moment is love and care
She needs pamper
She wants to act like a kid
Treaten like a princess
Everywoman needs this

Show the love and care with action not words
Words with different tempo and rhythm will brings out different meanings
Action is 100% sincerely
That's why people used to say ACTION IS POWER

all i need now is pampering
Was my request very over?

Today is christmas day
Do not have any christmas environment
It's seem to be another grey day
Mood is just so grey that early in the morning the sky already cried

Where is the sunny bright sun (smile) gone?
Get lost in the middle of sky (troublesome)?
Trying to find the way out?
struggling or fighting?
it's just so complicated

So what people said about is true
Good weather really shine brightly that burn the skin
Bad weather really will destroy people houses through a rain storm

U said before guessing what was in my mind is difficult

But right now you are doing the same things

We always and used to say 有东西就讲

You yourself also ALWAYS 是没有一次会自己讲！

有那次你是自己说？

要不是我问你会说吗？

你没心情因为我的语气

那么为什么你不想想看为什么我会没心情？

你有想过吗？

我有开心过吗？

我说不要提今晚发生的事

你有逗逗我开心吗？

电话没有

短信也没有

我的心情会好吗？

为什么问题是我？

我弄到你没心情？

那么我的心情谁来问？

谁人来安慰我？

你知道我也并不开心你有问问我吗？

你大声说话，我有对你发脾气吗？

我为了什么要低声下气继续好好的跟你讲话？

我尽量和你说话，你给我的反应是什么？

嗯

啊

哦

你回答的字，我是无法接下去的

那也是我的问题吗？

如果有一天我哑巴了

我和你之间是不是在也没有话题可说了？

你有没有觉得我们没有什么共同话题了？

我告诉你我这里的东西，你就说关我什么事？

如果我不问你工作上的东西，你会有东西跟我说吗？

我们之间会有对话吗？

是我西想多了或是我在胡思乱想？

真的不知道

发生这种事时，你知道要做些什么

但是往往你就是不知道为什么不去做

真可笑还是真可怜？