a pretty misunderstanding

i though u have fall asleep
cause it really sound so

i though u fall asleep until u did not hear i talked with you
so i hang the call

but the though is FALSE

now everything seem like my FAULT

i have to bear it..

who can understand the sadness in my heart?
who know much tears i have drop?

no one..

uncountable

原来到最后
错的还是我

为什么
每次都是这样！
我不明白！！！

我这样也是错吗？？？？

actually there are something hidden from my sound heart

i felt like i am just a joker

kept all the sadness and tiredness behind the makeup

put a thick smiling, happy makeup on the face

i am really tired of working

i knew my body immune system is low battery

i might fall sick at anytime

but i can not let it happen cause there are a lot of things i need to handle

i need to stand still and hold on tough for the coming big issues

next week will be a super busy week for me

i myself will need to take care 8 children from different standard by myself

so i think next week, i will have no time for you

even right now i also got no time to concentrate on my phone

most of times are spending on the kids

this is my career, i can not be irresponsible

so i need to take care of them and make sure they are learning

as they will be my achievement

i am so sorry for being no time for you

i don't want it to happen too

but right now i am young

i have the stamina and ability to stay till late and work hard

just to earn money for a better future

you and i know what should we do to achieve our future

so i am just working hard on it

sometimes after finished my 10 hours worked

i am exhausted

my mentally need a rest

my physically need to keep fresh so no one will worry

but no matter how as u said

'even iron will rotten, need to polish'

when i am tired, all i need is caring and positive statement

words that can give me motivation to move on

continued it..

not words that will make me upset and headache

this is because in front of u

i don't wanna be a joker

but a girl with the real original face

a person that i can rely on
always support me..
beside me...

February is here..
This is the month i will start to be busy..
This is the month i am taking personal student
This is the beginning of my challenge
This is the time for me to test myself ability

一波未平，一波又起~

有时候，做人真的是不容易。。
有时候，做人也不难。。
有时候，做人很闷也很无聊。。
有时候，做人很开心！^^
有时候，做人很伤心~   T_T
有时候，做人很委屈
有时候，做人很荣耀
有时候，做人很多烦恼 @_@

为什么。。。

我偏偏就是做人很难那位呢？？？

我很想去度假
很想去到一个没有人认识我的地方。。
一个新的环境
一个简单生活的小镇

在哪里逃离我的烦恼
我的苦海

自由自在的度假！

我是真的很累了。。

我知道能者多劳
可是我不是铁人也不是机器人

我是一位普通人
我也有自己的思想和想法
为什么我却追求不到？
难道这就是所谓的同人不同命？

我相信苦后是甜。。
现在我就要吃多一点苦
然后拥有一辈子的甜！

好了！
我不能怨天怨地
也不会认我的命运
我要证明我是行的！！

加油！！！

亲爱的，我必需跟你说声对不起

道歉我的任性
道歉我的无赖
道歉我的霸道
道歉我的无理取闹

是我的错，导致我们两人受伤

对不起

我的电话冷冷了
信息没回来了

我是孤独一人
冷漠的夜晚陪伴我

心里又冷又热
使我无法入睡

都怪自己的：
耳朵，听了不该听的东西
嘴巴，说了不该说的东西
眼睛，掉了许多不该掉的眼泪
大脑，记着不该记的东西

最错还是我的心
口是心非

没得好说
自作自受