there are alot of thing i wanna share it on blog
but i just don't have the time for it..
maybe is because i am using office macbook
so i couldn't upload the pictures i wan to share it...

just read my darling blog.....
and i feel so warm in the cold office
i know he will always listen to me and do what i ask


sometimes i do thing that i am controlling him
but at the same time i will think that what i ask him to do is for his own good
maybe i am wrong...
if i am please do correct me


yesterday night i was thinking the speech that i said to u..
was it hurt u????
i am so so sorry darling
i didn't mean it
just that i wanna let u know what i thinking

this few days i tends to be fall asleep easily when talk with u on the phone...
maybe is because i am tired...
not that i am 'fu yan' u...
so sorry!
and i know u sure will understand.... right???

cause u are my 'Mr. Know It All'

^^

u know what i just hate posting all the link all over the facebook!

i feel that its not good... oh my godness!

once i click into my home page i saw all the news stories is about myself posting all over the place...

i just dislike about it...



hmm... i dislike a!!

not feeling well..

hmm.. just now in the morning my boy not feeling well


right now is my turn not feeling well...


no fever, cough or flu


but just feeling like wanna vomit...

hmm..... and cant vomit out anything....


so i decide to force myself to eat...

its ok my dear..

i did not angry u nor myself..

really! since it was pass then just forget it..

let's face it together again..

a step that i took

a step that i took make a lot changes..

firstly, i leave the shop and work outside myself without and hill or mountain to protect me

secondly, i grab my brother's car and drive everyday from PJ to klang

thirdly, once again i need to say goodbye to my sweet little room

fourth, at night my sister cant share her problem with me neither i too.. she cant kacau me too when she cant fall to sleep

fifth, i need to spend quite a number where i got no income in

sixth, the worst was that i destroy the only chance that my boyfriend could see me once a week with a decision. i destroy the only way we can meet...

i am so sorry!

since then i dunno what to do but continue my daily life
with my brain keep thinking alot alot of things....

hmm.....

currently in the office..
is the word of 'c-u-r-i-o-s-i-t-y' come into your mind?
haha...
not a big deal for me to online in the office..
my company even give me a macbook pro to play...
unfortunately i don't really know how to use all the software..
of course once u use macbook u will find out that macbook is so nice
of course the $$ is pretty good too...



now they are a few things come into my mind..
i was thinking

a) what do i really want right now?

b) am i happy with what i had now??

c) am i doing my best now??

d) was now the thing i have it is what i want?

e) what suit me the most?

well, my answer for this few question is blur..
i got no idea which is the correct

as i post on my facebook..
do whatever i think is correct with no regret!
once i take a step there is no way to return but keep going on!

currently at the office here...

once again there is a though in my mind..


i agree that this company is good!

of course i know that i can learn a lot from here!

meanwhile my heart is not here totally...

thinking of this i really dunno how....

to continue this project then resign or how??

really got no idea...

tired of going out shooting until so far and it too me alot..

especially on money stuff!

i need to pay alot before my income come in... sad...